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Seriously, my emotions have been so idiotic, I wish I was an emotionless robot. I just feel so... blah. I'm wondering if I might possibly have Manic Disorder, but I just... don't know. I'm thinking that my parents might notice if something really off was going on about me... My brother-in-law asked if I was anorexic the other day because I didn't have breakfast or lunch... and I had salad and half a piece of pizza. Honestly I'm not, but I'm trying to lose some weight without actually having to exercise. Besides, I just don't like pizza kay? I could never become anorexic, I just love food too much. I'm just so jealous of my friend, who is going to a BVB concert this week. She said she'd record it and give a copy to me, but honestly I don't know what I would do with it?! If my mom saw it, she'd totally flip, and say I couldn't listen to music anymore. She didn't judge BVB until she saw a picture of Andy's face, and not even him with make-up, just a picture of his face. -.- And I've ranted about this before, but honestly.. I just want to go to at least one concert before I die, okay? I have to go through a whole battlefield to get ANY 1D stuff! No bracelets, no shirts, no posters, no calenders.... Just their cd, and 2 small notebooks, and a Niall Horan doll (My 2 year old nephew calls it a man-doll..) and then an unofficial biography video. That's all the dedication I can show to them. I just really want parents who will accept me for me. I am an anime-loving, Screamo fangirl. I just can't be that person around them. I can show my love for 1D around them (By the way, happy 20'th late birthday Zayn!) but... just.. no..